You are going to die sooner or later, we are all going to die. What happens after that? Where are you going? Will you disappear? Will your soul, your spirit vanish? Is there hell and heaven? Learn about it before it is too late. Get the Bible, read the Gospel of John and ask God the Father to show you the truth in the name of Jesus. This is serious, this is about your eternal life. Your soul is going to live forever, do you want to spend eternity in hell or with this amazing God who loves you so much, that He sent His only beloved Son, to save you from your sins, to snatch you out of the fire, to deliver you from death and the hands of the devil. Come to Jesus. He is waiting for you.
Rejoice in the Lord always, no matter how you feel, praise His Holy Name and rejoice.