You are going to die sooner or later, we are all going to die. What happens after that? Where are you going? Will you disappear? Will your soul, your spirit vanish? Is there hell and heaven? Learn about it before it is too late. Get the Bible, read the Gospel of John and ask God the Father to show you the truth in the name of Jesus. This is serious, this is about your eternal life. Your soul is going to live forever, do you want to spend eternity in hell or with this amazing God who loves you so much, that He sent His only beloved Son, to save you from your sins, to snatch you out of the fire, to deliver you from death and the hands of the devil. Come to Jesus. He is waiting for you.
There are so many Christians, who are struggling to believe that God really, truly loves them, and they are trying very hard to please Him to deserve that love and salvation. They become very religious and are trying so hard to be a good Christian, so worried whether they are good enough to be saved and loved, so scared that God may dislike them or reject them, they want to deserve the love of God, but grace is not about deserving anything, grace is about getting something even if you deserve nothing.
Paul Washer explains very well, what does it mean that God loves you, and what does it mean that Jesus Christ died on the cross for you to save you.